Saturday, May 7, 2011

Memory

My oldest brother and his wife have an e-mail account set up for their soon-to-be three-year-old daughter. They send e-mails to her for her to read when she grows up about funny things she's done, memories they've shared, and such. Occasionally they forward the e-mails to the rest of the family for us to read as it also helps catch us up on everything she's doing and learning since they're so far away and we can't see her as often. Chris just the other day sent an e-mail to her telling Emily of Grandma Moore (her great-grandmother) and remembering her now that she has passed away last Sunday. Obviously, the e-mail was from Chris' point of view and it tells of memories he has of her from growing up. It made me start thinking of my memories of her...
I remember she had a fridge in the basement that was stocked with sodas and juice. Almost immediately after arriving at her house and hugging hello (she made sure to hug EVERYONE hello and good-bye), my brothers and I would run down the steps to grab a drink. Normally we'd stay down there, playing pool on the enormous pool table, board games (though a bunch of the games didn't have all the pieces, like Mouse Trap...but we tried to set it up anyway!), or later down the road, ping-pong. Being the competitive family that we are, there was a lot of smack talk going on and gloating and such.
I remember getting pizza from Regina's, I think just about the best pizza ever. I don't remember many holidays, just a few, but there was always laughter and joking and everything was very loud! Grandma would always have us go wash our hands before we ate, and she always had Caress soap in the dish (which is the reason why I use it in my own home...it always reminds me of her and her house). She made THE BEST apple pie (sorry, Mom, but I don't think anyone could compete with it) and I'd always try to get more than one piece. After dinner, we'd clear the table and a pack of cards was brought out. It was from Grandma that I learned War, Rummy, and 10/Oh Shucks/Oh Hell/Trumps (the last one Grandpa Moore had taught everyone, but I learned it AT Grandma's).
My grandparents, brothers, aunt and uncle, and cousins (and occasionally mom and dad) would go down to Lake Kerr, where we rented two cabins beside each other right on the lake. The kids would get the lofts and the adults would get the two bedrooms. I think the last year we went the kids got one cabin and the adults got the other. One year there was a huge spider that decided to build its web completely across one of the doors and we just left it, amazed at the web she made, the detail and the sheer size of it! We'd all wake up, eat cereal, then head down to the lake...sometimes swimming in front of the cabins, sometimes going to another small beach, usually within walking distance, though Aunt Karla would sometimes drive herself, Grandma, and the younger of us that didn't want to walk as far. My cousins and I would go to a little store to get snacks and bait and such. I thought it was so cool because it floated on the water (which was really handy when the lake flooded one year). My cousins and I went to the loading dock one time and I slipped, slicing my big toe open. They helped me back and Grandma went to the store, bringing back bandages and a foam thing to put on my toe. I thought it was weird, so it didn't stay on long.
There was a neighbor behind Grandma that had a big pool with a slide who would let us come over and swim in the summer. One time the jet on the slide wasn't on and I had no back to my bathing suit, so when I went down I burned myself really bad. Grandma taught me how to cup my hands, keeping my fingers together, so I could "push" the water out of the way and swim better. She had apple trees and a grape arbor (which I thought was cool because it was like a little hideaway). She had an ENORMOUS tree in the backyard that we used to climb (the tree is actually listed in a book on the largest trees documented in the US(?), my brother found out). We played soccer and football in the backyard.
Other things I remember:
Grandma's the reason I finally got my ears pierced. Mom didn't let me, and then Grandma had thought they already were and bought me a jewelry set for Christmas one year that had pierced earrings in it.
Her coffee table was a huge slab of a tree trunk, which I thought (and still do) was the coolest thing. There were two stools I would sit on and either eat there or do puzzles or some other activities.
She always had candy, which I'd get when I was there. They were like Tootsie rolls, but flavors like vanilla, butterscotch, and butter rum (my favorite one!).
Grandma had the oddest collection of furniture and decor (including a huge set of carved wooden spoon, fork, and something else that hung on the basement wall, as well as an African-looking drum she used as a side table) that I think she and Grandpa Miller got when he was in the military.
I remember hunting Easter eggs in her front yard a couple years.
She had the oddest (and coolest) sayings, like, "Bwess 'em wittle teensie!" when you had a boo-boo.
Dad always called her "Rady" (I always wondered why he called his mother this, and he explained that he called her Ol' Rady (old lady) and she called him something back which I can't remember).
Grandma used to always call me Tada. I had always accepted it as an endearment, then one year I asked Aunt Karla why she called me that (I was afraid to ask Grandma herself because I was young and for some reason thought it'd hurt her feelings if I questioned her). Apparently, when I was born, my brother Eric couldn't say "Samantha" and all that came out sounded like Tada, so it always stuck with Grandma.
But the most important thing I remember about Grandma and Grandma's house was the love and laughter that was always shared there, starting with the big bear hugs and kisses on the cheek upon arrival and ending with the reluctant waves as our car pulled away.

I love you, Grandma.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

On a Roll

Today I was a busy bee. I had a list of things I wanted to bake, and though I didn't get through them all, I did manage to bake a batch of chocolate chip cookies and a batch of mom's dinner rolls. One reason for doing this is that, when Mike and I were first living together/married (I know, it makes it seem like we've been together for years!), we bought everything. We had a sweet tooth? We would buy Little Debbie cakes or packs of cookies or cookie mixes or containers of icing (yeah, we ate icing just out of the container). If we needed something to go with dinner, we would get tubes of Pillsbury biscuits. Well, we've found that we don't have the money for four dollars for a can of squeezy icing or three dollars for a pack of cookie mix. So, hopefully by baking my own stuff from scratch, we can cut back on our grocery money. Another reason for baking (aside that it's fun!), is it makes me remember what it was like baking with my mom. I remember when I was little, I would pull up the little wooden stool to the counter and watch while mom put in the ingredients, occasionally letting me help by putting in a cup of flour or a teaspoon of vanilla or, when I was a little older, cracking in an egg (that was my favorite part!). I'd then watch her put the spoonfuls of batter onto the cookie sheet (I don't ever remember her letting me do this...maybe I was too messy, I don't know). Once the cookies were in the oven, I'd help clean up...aka lick the batter off the beater and/or spatula! Duh, it's the best part of baking! I'd then go watch TV until the cookies were done, coming back to taste them and make sure they were up to par (which they always were!). Making the rolls today made me think about holidays, which is for the most part usually when this particular recipe was brought out. I remember after the dough rose, mom would ask if I wanted to punch down the dough (maybe not with this recipe, but with just about any bread she baked), which of course I wanted to! As I rolled out the dough, I saw the air bubbles in it and heard the little squeaks they emitted as I rolled them out, and I remember mom telling me to quiet down so I could hear them. I smiled a little as they popped, remembering how I'd giggle when they popped under her rolling pin (hey, I was a kid and easily amused...well, I guess not much has changed!). When I finally put them in the oven to bake, the warm aroma almost immediately began wafting from the oven to fill my house, and it took me back to me being upstairs in my room and knowing mom was making bread without actually having known what recipe she was whipping up in her mixer downstairs. While I was baking today, not only did I reminisce about the past, but I thought about the future, hoping that I will have as much fun baking with my son (and other children) as I had (and occasionally still do) with my own mom.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Extreme

Mike and I just watched an episode of "Extreme Couponing" on TLC. It's a relatively new show, but have you people seen it?! It's absolutely nuts what these people do! One woman had to have 18 separate check-outs in order for her couponing to work out properly! In the end, she had a total bill of $680 but only had to spend $6.46! Another woman had a bill of over $1,900 but had about 96% of it taken off due to couponing! (And I'm using a lot of exclamation points, but that's how ridiculous this is!) First of all, I want to know where the heck they're getting these coupons. I clip coupons occasionally when I think about it, and even went online to RedPlum.com and SmartSource.com, but they're all the same coupons, for the same products. Also, on the show they're double- and triple-couponing, which all the coupons I'm finding say on them "only one coupon allowed per person per transaction." I don't get it! These people are pros at it, I realize. They know where to get the coupons, some of them even call up the store to get a list of everything on sale, and they know roughly when things go on sale (for example, seasonal items...in January, everyone's health-conscious so oatmeals and the like go on sale). I don't know...I just have to say that it's kinda ridiculous. (Especially because these people stockpile products throughout their home, like the apocalypse is coming or something!)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

These Dreams go on When I Close My Eyes...

Every second of the night, I live another life!
This is so true. I've always had pretty...elaborate, we'll say...dreams. I still remember dreams from when I was little, like when a vampire was attacking me in the living room while my brothers were all around me.
Well, I guess because I'm pregnant, the hormones or something are making them even crazier, it seems. When I first got pregnant, I had a dream that Obama's wife was very pregnant and going into labor and I had to help deliver the baby because I was the only one around.
Two nights ago, I had multiple dreams. The first one, I was Harry Potter, only not in a castle...my friends and I were in some sort of boarding house. We found a secret door that led to a basement library that was haunted. The ghost kept leaving us clues, but the woman in charge of us kept finding us and interrupting our investigation. We finally found out the ghost wanted us to "Send her a letter." We didn't know who "her" was and I woke up before we could find out. That same night, I had another dream that my brother Eric challenged my brother Chris to...well, a challenge. You know those little floating rings that you see little kids wearing around their middle in backyard swimming pools? Well, the "challenge" was to throw a floating ring out into the ocean as far as they could (tied to a rope), then swim out to it and stay on it the longest. Yep, that was it. Very challenging, ya think? Well, it had to be called off because huge waves started rolling in and the crowd that had accumulated to watch the event all had to hurry to get to safety. So the next day, they tried again in a different location. At this location, there was a HUGE dune right before you get to the beach. The crowd scaled the dune to get to the beach, only to have a stories-high wave start to roll in. We all managed to get back on top of the dune safely. I heard a woman next to me ask her friend, "Is that a human skull?" I look over to them and see down in the sand, sure enough, there's a human skull semi-buried. I look all over the beach below and see human skulls everywhere...I guess they got trapped when a wave came in. Then, I noticed one below that had piercings all over (I'm not sure why the skull itself would have piercings). I pointed it out to my brother Steve. I then switch to his point of view in the dream and he's/I'm down there pulling out all the rings that look like they have diamonds in them. Then I woke up.
One final one from last night...My brother Jimmy and I were living together in an apartment. I was on my way home one night and a man asked me if I wanted to buy something. I said I had to get home, so he then pulls out a knife (a kitchen knife, of all things...not even a switch blade or anything!) I guess to mug me, but he fumbles and drops the knife. So I feel a burst of confidence and start pushing him, saying things like, "Yeah, pick on me, why don't you?" Then Jimmy comes out of the apartment and whips out a handgun and puts it on the guy. The man runs away and alls well the rest of the night. The next night, the same thing happens. I'm on my way home and the same guy comes up, with a friend this time. They start closing in on me when Jimmy comes out of the apartment and shoots them in order to save me. Scared, we hurry to get all of our things packed so we can get away before the cops come, even though it was self-defense. Well, the cops come, so we're hiding in the oddest places. And then I woke up.
I've been having dreams of old classmates that I don't talk to anymore, or very rarely. I dreamed briefly of my late grandmother last night (that was a nice one...kind of on the funny side). Pretty much any scenario, I've been dreaming it! Some are funny. Some are just odd.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

How Much is That Kitty in the Window?

What is it with cats and open windows? Well, I guess they don't necessarily have to be open. But cats are always in windows. They just stare out into the outside world. Thinking of one of their past nine lives, when they used to roam this earth wild and free? Or maybe thinking of when they used to be worshipped as gods in Egypt. Well, I guess, technically they weren't like gods, they were just highly revered and sometimes feared for their mystical powers. Of course, they were so revered that once the pharaoh died, they were killed as well to lead the pharaoh into the afterlife (which kinda sucked for them). Or they could be thinking of when they were royalty, living in the palaces, eating from crystal dishes and doing nothing but lying around all day on soft velvet cushions being pampered. Or maybe, just MAYBE...they could be thinking of cat nip and fish.
Who knows?

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things...

...Or not...
I have a few pet peeves. Okay, so everyone does. Well, I don't know if it's the hormones of pregnancy or what, but it seems like things are really irking me here lately.
Like at work, for instance. It's little things, like when the scrubs aren't folded neatly and stacked. Or the microwave door is left open. Or the doctors don't clean up after themselves. I mean, how hard is it to put a paper towel in the trash can that's a foot away? The same goes for home. Mike will leave a piece of trash out or not rinse the sink down after shaving or brushing his teeth. It annoys me so much! Oh, and also when people chew loudly. That just grates on me so bad!
Well, now that I'm pregnant, I will announce up and front: Please, please, PLEASE no one call me prego, preggers, or anything other than pregnant ("With child" is okay!). I have always hated those terms. I don't know why. I know some people think they are cute, but I think they are--I don't know--degrading? That's not exactly the word I'm thinking of, but I just really do not like those words.
That may sound weird that something so small gets on my nerves so bad, but there are people that have even stranger peeves. Any others?

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Have Creativity...Need Project

I need something to do. I know, you're probably thinking that I'm blogging right now. No, I don't mean I need something to do right this instant! Just in general. I'm getting into a little rut, and I'm kinda feeling creative, but not exactly sure where to put this creativity. I want to take pictures...but it's really cold outside and the scenery is pretty bleak with it being winter. I have all kinds of supplies, but I'm not sure what I want to do. I'll get stuff out to start drawing, then not really feel like it (and I can't force myself to draw...I've tried it before and it's not my best work). Or I can't find a subject that I like. I have stuff to draw, paint, scrapbook, make cards...but I don't know what to do!
I know, I'm weird. It's one thing to want to do something and not have the means to do it, but I want to do something AND have the means to do it...I just don't know what to do! Then, of course, part of me wants to try something new, like knitting or cross-stitching or jewelry making, all of which I don't have the means to do. And Mike and I are trying to save money with the baby coming and all, so we don't have the means to get the means. Know what I mean?
I'd like to do something for the nursery, but the nursery isn't anywhere near a nursery yet (not sure when we're going to start on that...here soon, I hope). As far as scrapbooking goes...that goes back to the not being able to take pictures issue. And I don't have very many pictures already to scrapbook.
I have some ideas...like collaging picture frames (I have a bunch of scrapbook supplies and I just found more when I cleaned my room at mom and dad's...and you can do a lot with scrapbook supplies besides scrapbooking) or doing drawings to decorate the nursery.
Anyhoo...just a little vent. All I do, it seems, is work, come home, watch Ghost Whisperer, kiss Mike goodbye when he goes to work, and sleep. I'm addicted to Ghost Whisperer, but I'm almost done with it! (*sigh*) If anyone has any suggestions, I'm all ears...